my recent job is downloading dramas n movies~
actually i'm finding a job now~
but my process a bit slow cuz i'm in lazy mode recently~
i really afraid that i'm too relax recently...
if i got a job,i can't handle and face it later...
i think i should do some warm up before enter a new environment...
anyone got any idea or suggestion?
anyone help me?
i think the one who can help myself is 'myself' of course~
i think i knew this answer long time ago~
just i choose to ignore cuz i don't wanna face the reality...i mean sometimes...
i'm afraid to enter a new environment is because of i knew this environment will be very challenging for me....
i'm a fragile person...
i'm not strong enough to face new things,new environment,new peoples....
luckily got Gohonzon and my family....
they are always my supporters!
i love them very much...
i will fight for myself and for my family....
i have to be strong...much much stronger than now...
2.49pm
21/5/2011
